The Results...

Here is the results of my first knot out. It was beautiful! I received numerous compliments about it and it lasted 3days out and one day in a bun. I am still working on the signature bun but this is more-than-likely a style that will be rocked again. Also this was wet styled so i am going to try it blowdried, then styled to see if my roots will look a little better.

In my blog-researching, I noticed that many people either talk about or ask about the transitioners self esteem.
Well my story is like manys...I had good self esteem, I wouldn't say it was great or high but it wasn't bad or low. It was positioned in the middle but more on the higher side. But weather we are willing to admitt it or not, our hair plays a big part in our self esteem, men and women because it has the ability to alterr the way you look to yourself and to others. So with that said, my self esteem has taken much of a hit on this roller coaster ride of transitioning. Some days are harder than others or lower than others and some days are better than others or higher than others. But every week sometimes twice a week on those lower or harder days, I have a conversation with myself saying "Self, you will not get a perm today. We will see the thing through" and depending on how I feel aftter that, I might have to go over the pros and cons of the two situations. I really realized and recognized that this was going on yesterday. There were some events happening with my family and I just couldn't get it together; this was the lowest it had ever been. And I realized this is why there is so much chat about it, becase this is what people are going through. Now, I will see what I will do better to make my self esteem higher bit recognizing that this is a problem for me is the first step to fully transitioning. And in mu honest opinion, you can't fully transition until your hair and your emotions about your hair are delt with, and that's from a future psychologist counseling others and herself/I mean myself. I hope this helps!